I started searching,researching,emailing..it grew into a crazy obsession. I am blaming it all on my biological clock and a hefty dose of PMS but this time I even shocked myself. I narrowed my decision down to a female Maltese. Chipper is half Maltese and doesn't shed and is also hypoallergenic. He was also free. I had no idea what a Maltese really cost.Until now. They range from $350-$5,000+!! I kept hitting dead end after dead end after dead end trying to afford or find one. Puppies were all I thought about and all I wanted to talk about. It. Was. Ridiculous!
So here we are to today. I did the best thing I know to do in these situations. I called my Mom. I told her what was going on and told her I needed a reality check or a loan for $300. I got what I asked for. My usually loving and sympathetic Mother lectured me like I brought home a failing report card! "You have your hands full with one dog.. " "Dogs shouldn't be that expensive..." "You have medical bills to pay...""This is not a good idea.."Whoa. I thanked her for the sound advice and did my best to pretend I wasn't upset. I hung up the phone and cried. I had to admit that what she said was true...I just wasn't as ready for it as I thought. Soon after Vern got home and I cried again and explained how totally broken and crazy I had become over a puppy. Vern being the always loving and supportive boyfriend he is, said and did all the right things. He understands how much it means to me yet he keeps me grounded with the faith that the right puppy will come along when the time is right.
I sound insane right? As I have said before " I am a 33 year old childless woman with a ringing biological clock,cut me some slack!" In my world,after a few failed pregnancies in my 20's,2 rounds of cervical cancer (awaiting surgery for 2nd time as we speak),2 1/2 years with a foster son and finally the decision of permanent contraception...adding another puppy is like deciding to have a 2nd baby. Not the same,but emotionally similar for me.
By this evening I felt a lot better. I guess I just needed a good cry. I think I even needed that harsh reality check from my Mom. I am backing the search off to a healthy level. I have friends and family looking all over 3 states for "her". The support has been amazing from Vern AND Del,my sister Missy and my bestie Jessica. Somehow those people just knew how important this was to me without me saying...OK well Del took a little convincing but now he's excited. I am so grateful :) By blogging this, I realize all the good things that have come from this process. How lucky I am to have a support system of people who love me so much! I am willing to wait for the right dog. It won't be easy but I assume that if "she" is this hard to find it only means "she" is worth the wait :)
P.S.- Would it be appropriate to have a baby shower for the puppy? he he
Perhaps she will be a Valentine's Day puppy and we could have a fun, light hearted pink party in the spring?
Am I crazy?
Never mind. Don't answer the last question :0) I already know the answer! LOL!
