One

Today is day one!

Tomorrow is the big surprise!

But.....

My hands are clammy,

I feel like I've had a quad shot of espresso and chased it with Red Bull!

Today is the day that so many things have to fall in place...

 so tomorrow will go as planned.

So far,

things are going "as scheduled" so I need to stop and count my blessings.

Then keep going again...

One.

 Foot.

 In.

Front.

Of.

The.

 Other.

I can do this...

And tomorrow..

Will be amazing

:)



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Five

5 more days until the big surprise! Technically,seeing that it's past midnight now....
only 4 more days! I am beyond excited to finally reveal my secret...but the build up of anticipation is fun right?! For the most part I am leaving all my FB friends in the dark about all of this but I did post a simple "Five" today just to get their attention. I don't think many will catch on until 3 or 2. So there you go my loyal blog readers,you heard it here first and you know as much as I can reveal at this time!

What's that?...You want a few hints? Hmmmm

It is something I have done before....and failed.So I am conquering those fears and trying it again.

It involves Vern and our children will benefit.

Complete this sentence:
I am anxiously waiting the arrival of 500______ _______ in the mail.

Ok,that's all you get for now!
Stay tuned!

Wait for it...waaaait for it...

It's time for me to stop accepting "good enough" and start making things happen. Time to challenge myself and do something that makes me a little afraid. Time to accept defeats and use them as fuel to push me forward. Time to have a little faith in myself. Time to admit outloud that I KNOW I can do anything I set my mind to but I know it takes hard work and I have gotten by too long in lazy auto pilot mode.

So....I look to those that matter most. I thank God for always leading me in the right direction. He has been whispering softly in my ear and guiding me and I know he will continue to walk with me- Building bridges when I am scared to jump,safeguarding my faith if I begin to doubt and providing a quiet place to collect my thoughts.

I thank Vern,for having enough faith in me for the both of us. Although the terms seems a bit cliche,he is my rock because he makes me feel safe and secure. My Prince Charming because he honestly makes me feel like a Princess in a fairy tale on a daily basis by understanding that it's the little things that count. And my Soul Mate. I know we were made for eachother and although I have been mistaken before,I know this is true love.

And last but not least,my parents. They have always been my biggest fans. I also appreciate that...even though I am 34 they are not afraid to question or lecture me when needed. Every kid,no matter how old,needs to know they have some boundaries...somebody has to be brave enough to ask the hard questions but also be charismatic enough to do it with loving intentions.

So I am giving you blog followers this news before anyone else. I/we will be making a big exciting announcement in mid March! Stay tuned!

On Strike

or possibly just premenstrual...

That same time every month when my roommates turn into lazy slobs,people are extra stupid and irritating on Facebook and well pretty much everywhere and I lack few nice thoughts worth repeating. It's laughable really. This little angry monster that shows up to clench my heart and shout in my belly with a convincing charm that makes me feel the need to vocalize all the things that are bugging me at the moment.

And now here's the part where I whine...I also have a cold,the aches and a whole box of generic Nyquil that just isn't helping. My lips are chapped and my ears are plugged. My body us exhausted but my brain is wide awake...ugh.

I can only hope that I wake up tomorrow feeling a little bit...or aLOT better.

Home Sweet Yurt

Our newest adventure brought us to a yurt in Grayland State Park this weekend. It was so fun! We wanted a quick and cheap way to sneak away for the night before Vern has to return to work this week and to take a break from some of the current pressures and excitement of my career. No TV,no plumbing,bunk beds and all the electricity you could enjoy on 50 watts of power in a round hut made of super durable canvas wrapped around a frame that looks like a bionic trellis. I'd be lying if I said we were roughing it..more like it made us feel like kids again. The wind and rain blew sideways outside pretty much the whole time but it was fun to "roll" up the window shade and watch the storm (above photo) whip through the campground while listening to huge waves crashing on the nearby beach. We bought our dinner at a mini mart down the road. Chips and salsa,bbq pork with sesame seeds and hot mustard,crackers... and smoked cheese,pork and bbq sauce home made by Vern. It was delicious and simple, just as we had hoped. We ended the night with some chocolatey brownies and some hilarious shadow puppets before we rearranged the furniture and created a make shift king size bed. It wasn't great but it wasn't any worse than some of the hotels/ guest beds I've slept in. I found the sound of rain hitting the side of the tent put me right to sleep and was a welcome sound when I was feeling restless during the night.

I woke to the bright daylight pouring through the clear plastic dome on the roof. After a short,cold sprint to the bathrooms  with Maxine tucked in my sweatshirt,I poured myself a cup of coffee and began to anticipate a hot shower. Vern got me enough tokens for 12 minutes of campground shower bliss and if I had hot water I planned on frivolously using up every last second of it! But much to my disappointment,my shower fantasy was cut short when the power went out on my way to the showers. Crap. So I bathed with a bottle of water in the yurt and we headed on our way home. We had to take the long way because the highway was closed due to the fatality accident that had knocked out the power. Stores and houses were dark for miles as we wound down the coast looking for a latte stand with power. This spoiled northwest girl needs her coffee! It rained...and poured....and blew...all.day.long. but the coast was gorgeous and we were in no hurry to get back to reality. We ended the relaxing part of the trip with a burger and fries before merging onto the busy highway home.

It was a perfect way to reconnect with Vern after many weeks of stress. We talked and laughed like only we do when we are alone. We rolled into the driveway happy and exhausted. Oh and when I finally got that long hot shower,it was a lot longer than 12 minutes ;)