My Fancy Rubbers

I really don't have even the smallest love for shoes or shoe shopping but....I could not resist these cuties! Cowboy style RUBBER boots! I LOVE them! Not sure how they'll handle the sand,er I mean ,how I will handle that little heel..in the sand...? Lol! Testing them out this weekend!

Heart Ache

My heart hurts. Not heart attack hurt but it literally hurts. I think perhaps He is once again providing me a growth spurt. Lucky me. I am thankful,really I am! To be able to have faith that, what may seem like negatives are really many positives in the making. That being said,the process can also be long and painful. Literally. Sure it was really just 2 parents displaying a little tough love,confronting their teen to try to motivate. But we all know that sometimes things hit you at a deeper level. That was me today. Deep. Stuck here in my own head,thinking. Faced with obstacles that shake me to the core. All of a sudden life was so big and I felt very small. I honestly questioned who I am. I'm still not sure. I know who I am in the inside but I think somewhere its getting lost in translation...? I just don't think I am projecting myself correctly on the outside? So,I step back and I try to learn. I can humbly accept defeat when I take it as an opportunity to grow. But what do I do when I am stuck between defeat and growth? That weird gray area where I just feel defeated...and my heart hurts? When it involves the one person you love like no other?! I guess my answer is that I blog. It's like a friend who always listens to,agrees with and remembers everything I say. So I come here and spill....and usually,I find some answers or at least feel a little better. Tonight being one of those rare times where I just dont have any answers and I don't feel a little better and strangely.....I am content with that. My normal defense mechanism at this point is to put up a wall or shut down or find a solution or throw out unreasonable demands or...and I don't know if its age or defeat or hurt but....it's different this time. This time changed me and I can only pray that whatever comes from it is worth it.

"When you're at your weakest, you really may be at your strongest. That's where God can really use you."

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Yep,That's More Like It

Whatta week! I want to tell how amazing my new job is but I almost don't know where to start! My coworkers have made me feel so welcome and have been a huge help as I learn my way around. My clients are keeping my schedule full and loving the new place too! As the week has gone by I am feeling more confident than ever that I made the right decision. This is all such a blessing!

It hasn't all been easy. Getting used to my cell phone ringing all.day .long. Then,there is the voice mails,e-mails,text,Facebook...all while I secretly pray that I don't mess up while I learn a new color line,credit machine,etc etc. Change is hard! Especially for my anxiety ridden,OCD, control freak self! Giving up never crossed my mind but small seeds of doubt grew.

And then today came. I kept my schedule light and took the afternoon off to run errands. I don't know where my second wind came from but I suddenly had the urge to cook and clean and work on all the things I have neglected at home. Spaghetti dinner,mini cheese cakes,4 loads of laundry washed dried and folded,dishes done and some much needed time attacking my house with my handy dandy spray bottle of bleach water. Then I sat down to relax while I returned a call home to my parents,balanced my ledger and taught myself how to make my very first spread sheet. (I am especially proud since accounting and organizing paperwork have never been my strong suit.) It was then that I finally found peace and balance. My house is clean,my chores are done,dinner didn't come from a store,a box or the freezer,and my business is successful and organized. Finally. This is my "ohm" moment when I take a deep breath and feel satisfied. Taken to my happy place. My little world put back on it's axis. All the newness is starting to settle in as I find my groove at work and home and learn to balance a fuller schedule and it just feels sooo right! Again,I am so blessed!

I hope that this mysterious energy that I found today sticks around for awhile. There is so much more to do....:)

Sundays,Slacks,Soul Mates,Stickers....and a nap

I forgot how much I love Sundays at home. There's just something about Sunday that always made it so hard to get up and go to work. It was so  nice to wake up this morning and enjoy a few lazy cups of coffee,work around the yard and cook a roast for a simple but delicious Sunday dinner All the changes in our lives due to the new job are still sinking in. I threw away my old, holy, black slacks and moved my jeans to the top of the pile. Oh jeans at work,I have missed you too! So many fun things in my wardrobe to wear now! I am not much for shopping or fashion so the no jeans rule really put a wrench in my work wardrobe,I stuck to black slacks....for THREE years.

Vern and I had a blast at the stationary store as we purchased supplies to keep the new business organized and Vern waited patiently as I picked out stickers to decorate it all. Accounting is much more fun with bling on the ledger right?! Together we created a record keeping system we both like but we have yet to have enough records to really put it to the test.
 This man of mine,he is so amazingly supportive.It feels wonderful to go through life with someone by my side who loves me the way he does. I am continually amazed at the things we accomplish and create together. If you read this blog regularly you will know that we have worked through a lot in the last 4 years- parenting issues,3 surgeries,1 lay off and all the other ups and downs of life-Friends,families,money,weather,work..and yet I find that at the end of each trial,Vern and I always come through it stronger and more bonded. Right now,I am a little scared about the new job...what are my coworkers like? Will people follow me? Will I be busy enough? Yet Vern is right there,reassuring me that I will do great and helping me stay focused on what I can do to be successful.

Today,I finally hit my wall.All this excitement and emotion had drained me. I was grumpy and pissy at just about everyone who crossed my path. I have learned to be humble at these moments and accept that,chances are..it's probably me. I needed a nap. So at 4:15 in the afternoon,I dropped what I was doing and did something that I rarely do... I crawled into bed and pulled the covers over my head.( I think that Vern was secretly relieved ha ha!) I snuggled deep in the blankets and fantasized that we lived on an island out in the middle of the ocean until I fell asleep. It was a perfect little vacation as I awoke in a much better mood! Vern had finished the roast and steamed the broccoli as I napped and let me sleep as long as he could. Again,he is so good to me :)

One meltdown and lots of prep work finally finished,I think we are ready for this new adventure in our lives.

Drum Roll Please!

Last night at the end of my shift..

I QUIT MY JOB!

Because...

 I am off to attempt to be my own boss again!

I will be renting a station at a hair salon here in town,

making my own appointments,

setting my own schedule

and no more black slacks!

I can wear jeans!

Vern and I have been so busy designing business cards and getting supplies...it has been stressful and exciting all at the same time! Today I went to the new salon and moved in all my supplies,it felt like Christmas! Then just shortly after that, my business cards arrived and they are perfect! Life is good! To schedule an appointment please call or text me at

 253-307-5639.

One

Today is day one!

Tomorrow is the big surprise!

But.....

My hands are clammy,

I feel like I've had a quad shot of espresso and chased it with Red Bull!

Today is the day that so many things have to fall in place...

 so tomorrow will go as planned.

So far,

things are going "as scheduled" so I need to stop and count my blessings.

Then keep going again...

One.

 Foot.

 In.

Front.

Of.

The.

 Other.

I can do this...

And tomorrow..

Will be amazing

:)