November

I often ask myself what makes me stop blogging for awhile...I know that sometimes it's because my mind is full of frustrations that are best not spewed out in haste on the Internet. Sometimes it's because my brain is tired and I want to amuse myself with mindless activities on Facebook or Pinterest. Sometimes it's because my life has had many changes this year and blogging has taken a back seat to new interests and priorities. But,when it comes right down to it,I love to blog,I always come back for more.
Since my last blog Maxine turned one!  It was the fun little pink birthday party I always wanted to have for my little girl! Both kids are doing great,Chipper was a good sport on Halloween and let me put his Santa outfit on..for about ten minutes.

Trevor is still living with us. It seems that life here isn't so bad after all....? ha ha For the most part he is a huge help but there are times I am reminded he is a 19 year old male and my Mother's words replay in my head "Men grow until they are 25,be patient."
So life goes on,in this little house of ours, 3 men,2 dogs and myself. Oh myself,it hasn't exactly been my best year....

First it was my gallbladder,I have spent 6 of the last 11 months either sick or recovering from the removal of that rotten organ.THEN,I crack a tooth so bad that it has to be removed! I have suffered for 2 weeks and I still  have 5 days to go before they pull  it out. Ugh. On top of all of that, there has also been adjustments to my anxiety medication,which makes me a little off my "game" for a week or two. This becomes the times I also hate my job. I struggle to keep up with the upbeat precision my clients expect while also continuing to get kicked in the proverbial ass by a corporation that only knows me as employee #bla bla bla! Growth..it's all personal growth right?!

This morning,on my way out of the shower (where I do all my deep thinking) I came to the conclusion that I am going through the "finding myself" stage in life. You know,when you start to take a good hard look in the mirror? When you stop pretending that everything isn't always someone elses fault and own up to the things about yourself that you don't like .....and want to change. Trying to see what others love about you.... and why. I wiped my wet face and hair with a giant pink fluffy towel,looked up to the Heavens and said "Fine. Break me. I need you to help me to be the best human being I can be. " I know and trust that on the flip side of all of this,it is all part of a much larger plan,propelled by love. Love, it's what wakes me up in the morning and keeps me warm at night. Beyond me or anything I could create in my wildest dreams,I have been given true love and a partner to share my life with. I say this because no matter how upside down life gets,I always have Vern by my side to keep my feet on solid ground and I couldn't be more thankful.

Now,onto a more light hearted subject before I wrap this up for the night. The holidays. We just survived 10-13 family members in and out of our tiny house,2-3 meals a day for 4 days. Vern and I prepared a Thanksgiving feast like no other before! We had 2 kinds of smoked turkey,all the traditional potato and stuffing fixings ,ham,candied bacon,truffles,pies,dips,chips,cheese,fudge and jello salad just to name a few..it was lots of fun! Everyone had a great time and the only complaints I heard was about the sudden shrinkage of every one's pants ha ha good times...I think it's going to take me a week to catch the Christmas spirit. Vern was a good sport and spent a few hours yesterday hanging Christmas lights...that helps! I will pack up the plastic pumpkins and mini hay bale in exchange for assembling the Christmas tree and hanging the stockings......next week :)